Unemployment, Pornhub, & Priestess

Written 10/09/2025 a5 1:30am

Welp, This is month five of me being unemployed. Someway, somehow, I've been staying afloat. I am greatful for the support of my friends, loved ones, and various organizations. Without the necessary support, I wouldn't have made it this far.

I daily apply for jobs and refresh my resume, however, it still seems futile to do so. Jobs call and schedule an interview, yet no potential employers. I'm doing my damnedest not to give up, so I decided to hustle the best way that I can. That includes pouring into my onlyfans, voice acting, and of course music. Hell, unemployment helped me revive my blogging career.

As I'm writing this blog post I'm streaming on Chaturbate as we speak. I don't mind doing sex work or adult content. I've been doing adult content since around 2005 once I entered into college. I had already discovered that I'm a nudist, but through porn and Real Sex (You know the episode) I realized I'm an exhibitionist. It started out doing Xtube videos and streaming occasionally to then full service sex work in 2009. That's a story that deserves its own story blog post or podcast episode.

I did a voice acting gig a while back. I thought it was going to be a great opportunity, but it turned out to be a dud!!! I was told that some of the deliverables were not satisfactory, but was not allowed to revise. This didn't make sense. Typically a client would request revisions. I guess this was an audition and they used what they could. My main concern is using my likeness for the sake of training AI. I refuse to let AI make people lazy and cause me to suffer!

Speaking of AI, I've been applying to jobs out the ass and updating résumé and most of the time I get an immediate rejection. What in the entire fuck? I have been keeping up with the fact that many employers are using AI to sift through potential candidates. Now jobs that require manpower are now being replaced with AI servants. I guess Skynet is here. I am hoping and praying that something gives before I combust!

I have had some interviews. I am thankful, but when are y'all going extend a hiring date!!! A woman is tired, but I am making the most of it. I am considering other options but right now my focus is maintaining shelter and utilities. Thank God for resources, even in Orange Sauron 2.0. This current political climate and Musky's efficiency team has wreaked havoc!!! Did I mention they are assaulting DEI? Girl the caucausity, coonery, and buffoonery!!!

There's so much to worry about while unemployed, but it hasn't stopped any motion. There's an opportunity out there somewhere, but its taking its sweet poor ass time getting here! I need it to hurry up! There are things that I want to do, places I want to go, ways I want to move, but naw things say otherwise.

I refuse to give up though. My content and streaming has helped some, but I am not one of he IT girlies in my niche. I am not sure how I feel about it at the moment. I am thankful for the following that I do have. However, my focus is on some music that I'm planning on releasing in November to celebrate my 13th year surviving HIV. I've been sitting on this song since 2015. I wanted to put it out, but family ran some interference. Now is the time.

I hope this doesn't blow up in my face. I really need things to work out for me right now. I am thankful for my manager and my label. They are a great help. I look forward to new things. There is something on the horizon. It has to be!